Whirlwind.

I've used the word whirlwind a lot,

 when describing my life lately. 

As I approached my undergraduate

graduation ceremony on Friday, 

I think deep down, I thought

 I would have a lot of questions answered. 

Questions like: 

[What's next?]

[Where am I going to live when my lease runs out?]

[What will my life look like this time next year?]

I realize it's been less than a week 

since I finished my undergraduate career, 

but the feelings of

relief,

anticipation, 

and excitement 

that I always thought I'd feel at this moment in time

are being overshadowed by 

uncertainty. 

It's easy for me to think "when

[insert life event] happens...I'll feel content." 

But as I stand on the other side of arguably one of the most 

monumental events in my life thus far, I think I'm

starting to realize that contentment transcends my emotions. 

It's a way of choosing to live. 

I don't know what's next. 

I don't know where I'll be living when my lease runs out.

&I don't know what my life will look like this time next year. 

But I do know what I am trying for, where my hope stands, and 

that I now have some freedom to enjoy the future. 

I am content with that.