Days like these

It's days like today, 

where everything in my environment reminds me. 

Rainy weather,

songs on the radio,

walks around my neighborhood,

television shows,

dreams,

conversations with friends, 

pictures I haven't yet taken down.

Most days I am busy enough to not

be distracted by my thoughts of what

is happening & what is to happen in

my life, but today, I was not. Everything

around me today pointed to a relationship that I

no longer have, 

desires that may never come to be, 

& a season of my life that is over. 

The strangest thing about this day is 

for the first time, I wasn't sad. 

My first thought was not to have 

my circumstances changed, but 

rather to recognize a change that 

has happened in me- that is happening in me.

It's country Sunday, but this song

has been on repeat.