This is the 4th installment of a mini series.
If you've missed anything, find it here, here, or here.
Brokenness yields opportunity for new things.
When I moved to Nashville in August, shortly after the hardest season I'd experienced in my life had begun, I knew that few things would seem familiar in this next chapter I was about to start.
I was moving to a brand new place 1,000 miles from home,
& I knew this move would bring a range of things to adjust to [ traffic, weather changes,
southern drawls, completely independent living].
I honestly felt like the person who was moving to Nashville was not the same
person who had graduated the year before & was about to watch
all of the intricate dreams she had carefully created for her future unfold.
I've struggled with living in the now my whole life. If I'm honest, even as I
write this, I can't help but think of what's next- finishing classes, moving on to my residency
& then moving on from there.
I've realized that once I saw all of my visualized plans of living in Nashville dissolve, I was left
with a blank slate of opportunity. Nothing I decided to do was hinging on another person,
an idea of my future, or a plan that was already made & waiting to be carried out.
I was completely free [& at times forced] to explore, create, & discover many of the things
I had neglected to think about because I was so far projected into the future I had created.
My time in Nashville so far has been an almost daily experience of recognizing newness;
there are so many opportunities here, so many relationships to be made, and so many
risks to be taken that I might have missed out on had my
original plans panned out the way I wanted them to.
& while I am sometimes still painfully aware
of the plans I once had & their current state of non-existence, I am finally able to
realize that letting go of them [a daily process] has opened up the opportunity for
new things. Not better or worse, just new. I am not willing to say that none of
these plans will ever come to fruition, but the time just isn't now, & that's okay.
This all reminds me of the song that inspired the namesake of this blog a few years ago:
If you've missed anything, find it here, here, or here.
Brokenness yields opportunity for new things.
When I moved to Nashville in August, shortly after the hardest season I'd experienced in my life had begun, I knew that few things would seem familiar in this next chapter I was about to start.
I was moving to a brand new place 1,000 miles from home,
& I knew this move would bring a range of things to adjust to [ traffic, weather changes,
southern drawls, completely independent living].
I honestly felt like the person who was moving to Nashville was not the same
person who had graduated the year before & was about to watch
all of the intricate dreams she had carefully created for her future unfold.
I've struggled with living in the now my whole life. If I'm honest, even as I
write this, I can't help but think of what's next- finishing classes, moving on to my residency
& then moving on from there.
I've realized that once I saw all of my visualized plans of living in Nashville dissolve, I was left
with a blank slate of opportunity. Nothing I decided to do was hinging on another person,
an idea of my future, or a plan that was already made & waiting to be carried out.
I was completely free [& at times forced] to explore, create, & discover many of the things
I had neglected to think about because I was so far projected into the future I had created.
My time in Nashville so far has been an almost daily experience of recognizing newness;
there are so many opportunities here, so many relationships to be made, and so many
risks to be taken that I might have missed out on had my
original plans panned out the way I wanted them to.
& while I am sometimes still painfully aware
of the plans I once had & their current state of non-existence, I am finally able to
realize that letting go of them [a daily process] has opened up the opportunity for
new things. Not better or worse, just new. I am not willing to say that none of
these plans will ever come to fruition, but the time just isn't now, & that's okay.
This all reminds me of the song that inspired the namesake of this blog a few years ago:
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